Track 5 Diamond - SNSD

The lights are shining on me and it's like a diamond

On this snowy Christmas Eve, I give to you the sign of my love that shines like the star of Bethlehem….

Aigoo… It's too flowery and pretentious. She might just laugh at me.

Tonight, I want to tell you that…. No. Too plain. She'll say I didn't give it thought.

My dearest Seohyun… Oh no. Too old fashioned and often used.

I'm screwed

I pondered as I threw another crumpled piece of scented stationery to the trash bin beside my table. Oops.. I missed my target. As I pulled another sheet, I thought hard of the right words to write. Pink and full of hearts. Where did Sungmin get these? How do I put my feelings in a piece of paper? How do I tell her? This is really awkward. How do you propose to a girl when you hardly even talk to her?

"Yah! You are flooding the dorm with paper. Do you know how many trees are cut down each year to make virgin paper? So messy."  Hyukjae hyung nagged as he picked up and shot the rebound for the scrunched page. He crossed his arms and flipped his blonde hair. He looked really cool and he has Hyoyeon to spend the Christmas Eve with. Lucky guy.

"Do you know how many of our members will remain virgins because of your indirect cockblocking, hyung?" Kyuhyun butted in. Hyukjae's jaws fell down synchronized with mine. Cho Kyuhyun. Sometimes I wonder why I'm close with this guy. He says the weirdest things. How can he say such while I'm thinking of my lovely innocent Seohyun?

My Seohyun, her eyes are lovely like the sunrise. Her voice is that of an angel that has fallen down from heaven to grace my presence with her eternal beauty. She is always so nice and kind, my mom would love to meet such a perfect girl for his favorite son. Maybe we would someday live in a nice house with two children. Or maybe three. She would teach them how to play the piano gracefully. I would cook for her every morning and also at night when she is too tired. Maybe we would have a vacation in Boracay too. They say the beach is nice there. She looks really lovely by the sea, her face glowing in the sunset…

"Hyung you are drooling and your boner is poking my knee. Stop daydreaming of Seohyun now. We have practice in thirty minutes." He ran out of the room before Hyuk or I could say anything. Hyung pointed as him as he darted out, his mouth still hanging. We'll never figure that guy out.

*

Practice was over. I'm changing to fresh clothes at the locker. I still haven't figured out how to tell Seohyunie how much I liked her. So much for asking tips and advice from the other members. All I got from them so far got me nowhere.

I tried giving her the food I cooked like Hyuk hyung told me. I went straight to their dorm holding a big casserole  of samgyetang for her. But as soon as Yoona opened the door and screamed at the top of her lungs "Wook oppa brought samgyetang!" with a big grin, Sooyoung bolted faster than anyone and the two of them finished my Soehyunie's food in front of my very eyes.

I can't follow Shindong's footsteps and propose in our album. That is too… too bold for me. I can't even say hi to her without stuttering.

Eeteuk hyung's comedy approach proved to be such a fail. She did laugh at my jokes a few times but when I tried the joke that I heard from Kyuhyun everything got awkward. All of SNSD avoided me. I don't even know why. What is a dildo? Anyway, they all talked to me again when I cooked potato soup for them

I also tried being sexy like Heechul hyung said. I asked Henry to teach me that English song I sang at SS4 but after that  she would just bow at me looking so red. I knew I shouldn’t have shown my stomach in the concert… or touched those backup dancers' legs…. Or put my face in front of the dancer… Omona. I shouldn't have listened to hyung. Seohyunie is a decent girl. She might think that I'm a manwhore now. What do I do? Siwon hyung said it was alright to show abs but… it felt wrong. I don't have moves like Jagger. I just want Seohyunie to notice me.

"Earth to Kim Ryeowook. Hyung, you're spacing out again." I jumped back as I see Kyuhyun's smiling face an inch away from mine. I'm seriously gonna have a heart attack because of this kid. If only he wasn’t my friend, I would totally think he is a creeper.

"Give this to Seohyun. Don't open it yourself ok? Don’t tell her it’s from me." He tossed a big box to me before he left the locker. What is this? Is Kyuhyun seriously trying to steal my precious angel away from me? Using me as a bridge?

*

I ruled out the possibility that he could like Seohyun since I know that he already asked someone to be his date for the Christmas Ball. But I still can’t help but be worried. I’m really afraid to give this to Seohyun. Knowing Kyu, this could range from a rat to a snake. He has put snakes in our beds once. But since I don’t hear anything moving from inside the box, I think it would be safe. Is it? 

I asked Donghae one more time if I looked alright. He answered me with an exasperated look.  “I told you, you look great.” I was supposed to believe him but when I saw the red and white striped table cloth that matched my long-sleeved polo, I started to have doubts.

I slowly approached their table. I felt all of my co-member’s eyes on me as I walked across the room. They have all been waiting for this day. I can hear Sungmin clapping like a little kid at our table. Yesung held Kym’s hand and they giggled like school girls. Oh man. This makes me nervous.

Sonyeo Shidae’s nine pair of lovely eyes burned me. In a good way though. I felt like doing back flips when I saw Seohyun looking right back at me. How can she be this lovely in that simple grey sweater and red shawl? She popped out from the white Christmas decorations of the room.

The big box was shaking in my hand. It wasn’t even heavy. I took a deep breath as I stopped a meter away from her. I bent my body as far as it could while reaching out the mysterious gift to her. I looked up when she took the box from my hand. Our fingers touched a little and I felt electricity run through my entire body. She looked as red as her shawl, and I can feel that I am no better. My face was hot and my knees were jelly.

Yuri nudged her and all her unnies were mouthing for her to open it. Here goes nothing. The moment of truth.

Seohyun carefully pulled the two inch red ribbon which loosened it’s knot. The green box easily  opened at the top. It looked ordinary but what we saw inside surprised at all. Another box? It was red this time. Smaller than the first box, it was cushioned under pink crumpled papers. Are those? Oh my life. Kyuhyun you are so dead if she saw what’s written on those papers.

She pulled off the green ribbon and opened the second box. The girls laughed when Seohyun found an even smaller golden box inside the red box.

“Sunbaenim, are you playing a trick on me?” She looked at me puzzled with her brown eyes. Kyuhyun I will never cook for you again.

Even if everyone was looking at us, she continued to open the golden box and there she found the smallest box. It was lying on top of a letter. Pink stationery. So Sungmin is in this one too? I wonder who else.

I looked back at our table and they were all motioning for me to read the letter. So all of them knew about this?

I don’t know if my co-members really loved me that much or they just enjoy seeing me in awkward situations such as this. I reached for the letter in Seohyun’s hand as she held the small box in her right hand. Woah… there goes the electric bolt again.

“Seo Joohyun” I started to read the letter. My heart was pounding like a bass drum. She looked hesitant to open the last box. My hand jerked to stop her but I heard cheering from behind me to read on.

“I have been watching you for the longest time. Since that day I first saw you, I knew that you were the one. You might see me as a weird oppa for always looking at you from afar. But I promise I am not a bad person. Even if I am not as cute as Kyuhyun…. Hey? What the?” I shot them a glance and they were all laughing so I just continued to read. “You are the only girl who melted by heart. I wanted to find words to describe how I feel but I failed miserably. Instead, please accept this token of my love for you. To me you are more beautiful and bright that any gem in this world. Please be my girlfriend.” I read in monotone, afraid that I’ll sound even more awkward than I am.

She opened the small box and everyone saw a piece of jewelry that seemed to shine like the brightest star in the night sky. It was a diamond ring. I heard everyone saying “Aww” in unison. I felt myself move even without me knowing it. The music seemed to stop and time was standstill. I placed it on her left finger as I swallowed down a lump on my own throat. Her unnies eyes were wide with shock but they looked pleasantly surprised. The only face I couldn’t read was Seohyun’s.

It dawned on me that I made a wrong move. She wasn’t moving or saying anything. I turned around feeling like a fool. The weight of the world held my shoulders down and I couldn’t even see the faces on our table as my vision was clouded by hot tears.

“Yes.” It pierced through my ear like cupid’s arrow.

“Yes oppa. I will be your… girlfriend.”  I felt a head rush coming over me as I turned back to look at her. Her face was beaming. I pictured this scene inside my head for a thousand times before. But not once in my imagination that she was as beautiful as this. I ran as she met me halfway in the middle of the dance floor.

Spotlights all focused on us as I heard the music start to play again. I held her hand and we swayed to the sweet melody. Half of me was still in disbelief while the other half is plainly mesmerized by the angel in front of me. Everything was perfect. I smiled as I looked at her hand in mine, wearing the sign of my love for her. Yes everything was perfect. I glanced back to our table to mouth thank you to them especially to Kyuhyun. Who knew he could be such a sweet kid?

“HYUNG! YOU OWE US 20,000 MANWON FOR THE RING!!!” Oh crap.